LightningComesBeforeTheThunder;;

When the sun shines we'll shine together,
Told you I'll be here forever,
Said I'll always be a friend,
Took an oath, I'ma stick it out til the end,
Now that it's raining more then ever,
Know that we'll still have each other,
You can stand under my umbrella.

Friendship is probably one of the most strong

things to have. And it's important to keep the ones you have, because you never know when your going to need a shoulder to cry on. Or an umbrella to be under when it's raining harder then ever. Unfortunately, I have no idea if it's me that's been pushing my friends away, of if it's been them pushing me away; But when I notice it, I try to fix things and I guess things end up working the opposite because I guess I end up smothering them and clinging onto them created by this fear I have for loosing them. Although I might have already lost someone I really care about.

No, I'm not going to go into further detail.

I don't want to bore you with my problems. The only thing I will add is, I drove someone insane to the point where they don't want me as a friend anymore. And due to this, I feel alone. Not just because of one person, but I've been distant with everyone around me. It's causing me to feel pretty depressed.

So my advice to you, don't keep your friends TOTALLY out of your life,

but also, don't keep them too close to the point where your starting to get annoyed with one another. Believe me, I've made that mistake one too many times. And it is NOT a fun trip.

Colours of the wind;;

Roses are dead,
Days are getting cold,
Nights are becoming shorter,
And leaves are turning gold.

That's right, the fall has come. Although I don't think it's just the leaves that are changing.
To be quite frank, the people around us are changing as well. Some in positive ways, others make you regret meeting them. The people that I grew up with in middle school, some of them thought they were much better then me. I wasn't exactly 'Drop-Dead-Gorgeous' then. The way people thought was "Alright, I'm pretty, so that must mean I'll go far in life and I won't have to try or work hard at anything or have respect for others for that matter. I'm pretty and that's all that matters."

Unfortunately honey-bun, life doesn't work that way.
In the real world, you have to actually get off your ass and work for what you want in life. Things won't come to you JUST because of your looks. You can be the most STUNNING person on the planet, and you can still end up on the streets. There is a thing called 'Personality' and 'Character', and unless if you have those things, you won't go that far. Your looks are only good for the first 40 years or so of your life. Once you get wrinkles, and grey hairs, and fat to your body that you can't work off; It all comes down to who *you* are and what *you* are capable of.

So while we're young, try to be a good person.
Try to become something, and not just anything, but become what you want to be. Remain to stay true to yourself of course, but make mistakes, learn from them, move on, and do the right thing. It's what's inside of you that's what matters most. It doesn't matter what you do, but HOW you do it.

I believe I've even changed myself.
When I started High-School, I started changing my looks and now, I'll be graduating this year and by now, people give me many compliments and tell me how much I changed since I was a kid. I'm even beginning to be enrolled in modeling; But I'll always be the same person inside.

Just how, when one leaf falls, another one will eventually grow.